I feel much better inside not depressed anymore, still I have some Problems with my living habits, but it will be much easier to handle that when I am finsished with school this week! Then I´ll have time to organize my daily life incoorporate working and so on..
I leared that I can be happy again and food for instance does not make me satisfied: but just the fact that I am not allowed to eat sweets will make me sad again, so I have to figure out what to do
Well again a day where I couldn´t control myself I went freakin´ crazy and it is getting worse: I gain weight like a secound ice age is starting and i have to get some fat on my hips! Only a month ago I had my life under control and that doesn´t mean I didn´t have problems with cuting out sweets but now I eat even more than I ever ate and more important more than I really need or want! Tomorrow I will start my “diet” again which means, finally getting back to what I was before losing control. I go to the gym anyway but the problem are my eating habits so this is what I am working on now!
For some reason I am very motivated this morning so: I am going to work out, learn a bit for my finals and enjoy the sun! Tomorrow my Grandparents from Netherlands are visiting us and I am so excited! I love my family more than everything, but sadly I don´t see them very often. So yeah pretty awesome weekend. Next week I´ll have my final two tests and then I am finished with school!
Thanks a lot life for this feeling!:D
Well to start off this will be a place I openend up to share my thoughs-expressing what I experience within myself. This is a long list of things I want to talk about: I don´t want just to wallow in self-pity when I write about some things that bother me, but I need this right now. I need to write down everything. It is the first part of a long page with stories and thoughts about myself. Good stories, bad stories, boring stories, farytales and dreams.